There might be a major change in my life but I don’t know it yet.
I’m not freaking out. I know, reasonably, there is not a chance. But it’s the fact that it might actually be true that calms me. Its when I’m most afraid of just the threat that makes me panic. I know that that doesn’t make much sense.
I am doing everything possible so my plan in life works out the way I want it to. You know, basically. Maybe somethings just happen because they are meant to.
I’m trying to be healthy. I’m trying to lose weight. I’m trying to move on with my life. I’m trying to live a clean, honest, purpose-driven life.
Yet I wonder why things are so complicated.
I feel strange. Physically and emotionally.